I got....

Well, it's not really permanent job yet but the person who hired me said it might become permanent if I did a good job with the position. I do not know when it will become permanent or will I keep the position for sure. At least I have a full-time job for ten months with benefits, an office, a computer, not great salary to start with but it's something to support myself for now, and happy to know that I'm alive for ten months.

It's sort of funny how I got a full-time job. And it's sort of long story. I'll make a long story short for you.

I'll create names so you wouldn't get lost in this long short story.

Bossest: Sabrina
Bosser: Judi
Boss: Ben

I applied a full-time position at University and waited for Judi, the bosser, to tell me the date for interview. About two or three weeks ago, Judi told me that I wasn't invited for an interview because they found better. I was disappointed because I was qualified for this position but I assumed the person must have PhD or something "wow" Judi and Ben.

Judi offered me to teach Tuesdays and Thursdays morning (two more classes, right now I have two night classes). I had to turn down the offer because the pay wasn't great and what if I got a job offer and would not able to work full-time because of that. So night classes would be considered to be extra $$ for me if I got another job offer.

So I applied another position at high school to teach American Sign Language (ASL) as foreign language. I was very impressed with their program. I felt that their program was organized and much better than the University. I thought maybe that one would be better for me. And much less commute! University would be 40 minutes without traffic.

I had to go through pain of screening, first interview, etc. for high school. During the screening I hit the score what they wanted from me, but I learned that high school principal does not want to hire any deaf teacher. She thinks deaf are not able to handle high school students because of communication. She does not want to hire interpreter because they will have to pay for it. AND ASL teacher, she is hearing, was going to retire (that's why the position was open) and told the principal that deaf cannot teach ASL classes. Principal believed her.

The worse part that the principal said if they (HR, etc) want to hire a deaf teacher, she might drop the ASL program. OHHHH! (Rolling eyes)

So during the screening, I met her and she said nothing to me. NOTHING! Serious, she just ignored me. The person who screened me was so embarrassed and explained to me what happened. Uh oh. Somehow I wanted to show them that I can teach and do not need interpreter for my ASL classes. I never need one for eleven years! I was qualified for first interview AND invited for second interview. Both turned out GREAT! Now I had to wait for third and final interview--that one will have to interview with THAT school principal.

I have been waiting for that interview more than two months. I have emailed and asked any idea.. The HR person said they have to find a place for ALL current teachers to make sure they have a job before they hire new teachers. Oh boy, they are STILL working on it. Blame on Union. :S

I even told one elementary school that I'm interested for a position to take one teacher's position. So far I applied three jobs. I was about to apply some more jobs.

Last Thursday late afternoon, I got an email from Sabrina, Bossest, and asked me if I'm interested full-time job but it will be a temporary visiting position for two semesters. Sabrina hopes they can renew it for a few years then make it permanent. So that sounds good, they will pay me little better than adjunct pay. But the position will require more work than just teach ASL classes. I will have to attend the meetings (blah), advise undergraduate students, assist with helping new ASL 1 instructors, etc.. AND I'll have an office and computer to keep myself busy.

Sabrina also said I'll teach four ASL classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays morning. (Umm that's what Judi offered me before...) Not bad. But Sabrina wanted to know the answer---now.. I had hard time to make a decision if I really want that job or not. It is so far to drive and not great pay but better than adjunct. Yikes Yikes Yikes! The next day, I knew the offer was best one so I accepted the offer. Now I'll start my full-time job starting this fall. It's a bit overwhelming because I will need to learn many things new to prepare myself to advise undergraduate students, etc. But same time I'm excited to improve my skills through serve the students, staff, and myself. :D

Well, I made it long story short. I now have a full-time job for ten months and hopefully everything will work out with staff. That one I haven't share the juices with you. Juices are unimportant, but the important is I HAVE A JOB!  Heehee.

Monster Haircut

I know you wanted to see my monster hair before you make a decision if the student was right or not. Here you go!

Heart Jumped

Oh it can't be true?! I felt it was a dream. I had to blink my eyes several times to take a good look at this grades. I got three A's for internship. My heart has jumped up and down. I could feel my chest pounding. I knew my face will get hurts for smile so BIG and stay LONG time.

This.. I gotta brag because this is my FIRST time to get ALL classes A's even four classes has A-'s. These teachers were tough! Even one teacher really don't like me very much. He tried to give me B for two different classes and different time. I hated to complain that I earned an A. He was avoiding but he had to since the points were on the syllabus and I was on the point of A. Long story, but it was over. I ended up got two A-'s from him. It was better than B.

Man, I felt so GOOD. I had to thank Annie for all of her patient to help me through this program. She helped my English grammar. She helped me to understand some subjects from textbooks. She even helped me to write tons of papers. She sometimes stayed up so late with me to finish some projects. She was so kind to me even I got grumpy when I got so frustrated. What I mean is that I couldn't get in program without her. It is not all...

Thank you SO MUCH for all of prayers to help me to keep going and going to finish this program. Without your prayers, I would miss one step that would caused me fell down.. My body will bounce as a ball would do. That remind me of Tim and me playing balls, toys, etc.. One of us would be top of the stairs while other bottom.. We would threw or let it bounce.. I don't know why it was fun for us.. Anyway, back to grades.. Thank you for all of your support me through my graduate years BUT LOOK at my grades! I got GPA 3.929!!! That was BEST EVER I MADE IN MY WHOLE LIFE!

I know I did get some A's. I remember I was in middle school. Mom tried to bribe me to do well in school. I never get good grades, eh. I hate doing homework or didn't do well on tests who know. I recalled mom told me if I get all A's, I would get a Garfield doll. You know, my teenager life, I LOVED Garfield! I would do anything to collect Garfield (doll, books, etc). That was our deal to get good grades. I worked so hard to get good grades. I did got ALL A's but one B or C. It was math or I couldn't remember what it was... I was disappointed because I knew I will not get a Garfield doll. I tried again but still ended up the same for a whole year. Bummer, I didn't get Garfield doll at all. :( The deal was off when I get in high school. The rule played different..

It was funny to look back my youth and couldn't believe how much I have changed. No, no, I don't want a Garfield doll for my grades that I earned from my program. I would like to get a big thing.. Haha! Whew, what's a big relief for me... Sighs.. Time for me to have a fancy bath with candles and read a good book. Maybe eat some ice cream. Umm what else I can do to give myself a good reward. I'm thinking...

A Miracle

I do not know which best word to use for this. I wanted to scream crazy. I wanted to go outside and running around for being an idiot. I wanted to jump on the airplane to go anywhere to be free. Actually I wanted to CELEBRATE that I FINALLY finished my master program. This morning was my incredible glory when I turn CDs in to my advisor. My hands just slap to clean the dirty off. (Well, maybe it's too early to celebrate because it's not really done done yet.)

Still I'm done with all of homework, studying, taking tests, going to classes, practicum, internship, etc. ALL DONE!!!!!!!

Now I hate to take a step forward of my life is to find a job. I'm starting to applying some jobs. I think it would be best to take a LONG break, I mean five years break before looking for a job.. I think it is a good idea! Bummer, how can I earn the $$.. I have no husband or kids to support or to keep kids busy. Dang it.

BUT I feel I was so blessed to able to complete this program with Heavenly Father's HELP. I couldn't done without Him. I'm grateful I did take courage to move out of my comfort zone, got in master program, a job while in school, and trying many new things. I'm grateful that none of them sink me under the water.. Whew.

When I read this and realized I have been blah blah silly because it's obviously that I'm bored. Hahaha. Anyway, I just wanted to tell you.. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!! I did it! Silly, uh?

New Experiences

Yes, that's me teaching the class. (3rd grade)

Today I had a chance to teach 3rd grade deaf kids for 70 minutes at deaf school. GOSH! For two whole weeks, the class has squashed me badly. Umm I think I have exaggerated on that part, grins. I'm safe to say the class had grilled me to a well-done burger, not a burned burger.

I was anxious about teaching the kids for a whole week before today. I couldn't bear the horrible images in my head. All of those images were filled of being failure nor out of control with kids. I had to make lesson plans (individual lesson for one content such as math, science, language art, etc), SRP (prepared lessons for two weeks or depends on themes how long to teach that topic), and other things. I hate to do SRP. Groans.

Top of all, I'm extreme SCARED to teach the special needs kids in middle school starting in two weeks for my internship. My internship will last ten weeks. I'm swallowing my own spits for a "gulp" as knowing the day is coming up so quickly as a cheetah chasing a gazelle. Gosh. Why am I comparing with everything?! What's heck wrong with me? I think I'm experiencing nervous breakdown at that moment.

Breathing in and out. If you haven't hear from me in ten weeks, then you'll know why. Obviously I might be burden by the ocean----way deeper than the color of blue (or cyan). I think I better stop blah blah over being scared. Okay, when I was teaching the kids and it surprised me greatly.

You must wondered why I said it has surprised me. Um, I was surprised how much I enjoyed being teaching the kids. It has opened my eyes and knew I made the right decision by choosing this career. Lately I was battling with myself that I really do not want to teach kids because of lot of work, meetings, papers work, etc. I know it sounds lame but I'm afraid that I was not good enough for this.

Oh boy! I guess I can make it work. Eh, that means I need to improve many areas such as my English, creative how to teach, or how to find the resources to use for the lesson. My English is poorly and it made more difficult for me to be vulnerable to show my weakness of English. Cured to myself!

One of my classmates made my day bright by telling me that I HAVE to teach elementary because of my teaching skills. Another classmate mentioned that she noticed the kids draw me than two others students teaching. My "team" classmate said that I'll be a good mother, eh. So I guess they liked how I did with my "borrowed" kids this morning. That's what I had for this morning--I taught 3rd grade for 70 minutes. (Well, not really...whole 70 minutes because I have a team to teach and we takes a turn to teach the lesson.) Anyway, I did it, liked it, and happy that I had wonderful new experiences.

DONE!

I was so glad that COMP was over! I can't believe that they excepted us to finish this COMP within three hours. Seriously, it's impossible to accomplish about 10-15 pages in three hours with lot of thinking on the topics, but I tried. Yup, I tried my best. My anxious will not go away until I know if I pass or not. Bummer, I won't know in four weeks or more. Sighs. I hate waiting for the results, didn't you? But it's done. DONE! I'm DONE, hopefully.

Stressed!

That's me. I realized this THIS THIS Saturday I have to take a big test called COMP. This program gave us two options: Doing thesis that will steal your life or taking COMP that will cause your body bald. Which would I go for? I can't believe I went for second one! I do not have time to do thesis, that sucks.

I tried to study and memorized several articles. Sometimes I feel it's impossible to accomplish what I wanted before this Saturday. My job and practicum eat up my time. Real world know how to suck up my energy before I got home. I sat down and tried to focus on the flashcards. UGH! It seems those words can't stay on mind. My eyes kept driving me nuts. All of my body were trying to tell me to go bed even it was barely 6pm! Now I'm STRESSED OUT! Even worse my patience has gone to a thin ice. Yikes.

Okay, okay! I need to breath in and out. I can't believe today is Tuesday! I have only three and half to go! AAAAHHHHH! Okay, okay--I need something to slap me stop being stressed.. I found this, Stress Reduction Kit, and wonder if it works.. I should try it.. Should I?

Well, I'm still here and no, I did not try that theory to release my stresses. Sighs, I just finished added some more articles on my listing. NOT fun. UGH! I need something to calm me. Well, I found other picture and it looks like a good idea. Done! I just had a yummy ice cream. Darn, it helps but only for temporary. I decided to search more options how to release my stresses.. Yes, I was wasting my time looking for a perfect solution to calm my stresses. It took me a while......

......until I saw this picture, I bursted laugh my guts out. I guess that's what I need for now.

Please pray for me that I can handle the stresses and able to remember all of the articles for this Saturday, naughty COMP...

Yikes!

I cannot believe the fall semester started already. Last night I went to my class and it's nice to know it's only one class that I'm taking this semester. That means I can do it being in the class for more than two and half hours. Actually I still have to take ONE LAST class this January after holiday before I start my intern. (If everything work out with tests, practicum hours, etc on time..) I need to remember how to breathe in and out through this semester.

It sounds that I have light schedule this semester. Nope, I have to teach four classes at Towson University plus office hours. I will have to go to Maryland Deaf school to finish up my practicum on Tuesdays and Thursdays--all day. I REALLY HAVE to start study for comp test (it's same idea doing thesis but different ways for masters.) I also need to take two parts of Praxis before Christmas. AND I still need to take EPE to pass the level before I graduate. It sounds light? I don't think so, blah. I do not want to think about it now. Too much stress!

All I can say..

Am I dreaming?

I think I'm dreaming that I have some extra time to type my blog. I had to pinch myself to make sure I'm not dreaming this. OW! I guess I'm not dreaming! Indeed, I'm back in school and the school wanted to drown me! My nose is barely above the water. Enough with imagine being in the water.

I have been in summer school for two weeks. I have one more week to go. Am I insane to take two classes for three weeks?! I went through this last summer and hated it. I felt it was brutal experiences but same time it's good idea to get over with it FAST and SHORT time. I do no know which summer is worst, so no comment on that one yet.

This morning something just hit me--today is seven days away from my surgery. Yes, I'm still counting down for my second surgery. I have no idea what will happen on that day--with my insurance. It's 50% until I'm in the hospital. I have to be there at 5:30am for my surgery at 7:30am. Groans, poor both us (Annie will have to drive me and stay there until I'm out of surgery then bring me back home..) I'm sure both of us will dead by night on that day. Anyway, keep your eyes open. I'll post as soon as I can.